October 13th and a long time coming- a sort of confession

.....
it's been a long time. 
A lot of thinking, learning how to walk again, progress, pain and a lot of patience. 
With myself and others.

My training has been to learn how to walk - to not compensate , to push off from the right places, to not shift weight over and so on. Concious walking if you want to call it something.

And I got a training buddy - her name is Belle and she is a rescue Amstaff mix puppy  - she has been with me for about 5 weeks now and she gets me out every day - for about 2 + hours every day  - if you count all our time on our feet

- that is 2+ hours more than before.
Let me hold on to that.

Belle is not good at being alone at all - so going swimming, Bikram or gym will have to wait a little.

It has been a really though year.
I have gained weight about 20kg or 45 lbs probably - not sure since I don't have a scale -
- but I am on my way down 

I fell out of my consistent training.
-but I have now started to walk every day with my dog

I stopped eating healthy to self medicate.
-but I am doing better and better and I did not start drinking, smoking or doing drugs.

I have looked at all the social media and thought to myself that everyone else has had such great success.
-but I also know that we present what we want others to see. 
- and I have great inspiration from the Instagram and blogs of some other athletes.

Take a look at these:

http://fitasf.com/
Sarah and Ditte are fantastic athletes and motivated people :-)

http://instagram.com/sarahltk79

https://www.facebook.com/wallbergfrida?hc_location=stream

http://instagram.com/kmaecags

https://www.facebook.com/lisa.smithbatchen

I did however complete Marathon des Sables this April with an injury so I was slow as hell but finished.
I did take care of my ankle and had surgery.
I did get myself out of my hole and making progress.

Goals:
Back to consistent training 
Bikram Yoga....
and CrossFit(with my coach Syn Martinez of AfroBrutality)
Swimming and water running
Hill vandering - yes a hill up and down
Better eating....


life is life. it goes on no matter what.  might as well join in.
peace. love. crossfit. life. move.